Duty and Devotion

PHOTO COURTESY OF ME :)


I read this devotion today and it really kinda gave me hope:



"Who being the brightness of His glory, and the express image of HisPerson, and upholding all things by the word of His power, when He had by Himself purged our sins, sat down on the right hand of theMajesty on high" (Hebrews 1:3).
Everything is upheld by His power, and all things are working together according to His Purpose. The Spirit searches all things andreveals them for what they are. Before Him everything is manifest, and there is nothing hidden from Him. There is no darkness that He does not penetrate, no deception that He cannot illuminate, no evil that He will not eradicate. (BY CHIP BROGDEN)

Deborah is coming back from the USA on Monday - HALLELUJAH!! I am so pleased. I went and got some cool stufff for her bedroom and then vacuumed, dusted, changed her sheets and rearranged her room a bit, putting the new things I had bought her in different places. I got tthese really cool small black cube candles with this antiquey design of birds and leaves stencilled in white on the front and lined them along a thin dark mahogany tray - six in a row - the effect was awesome. I also got four small fake lemons (realistic though) and put them in a small black African style bowl. They are beside the tray of candles - I was very proud of myself :)

Had a huge chat to Dad tonight about how my childhood has affected me, for better, for worse. I always thought him the perfect dad - He is INCREDIBLE, so understanding and listening and always always there but there was a little lack of warmth growing up. It was nothing that was done, it's what wasn't done. Everyone is a product of their childhood, he was a product of his - a coldish Dutch Father and an overbearing mother - both trying to do their best - but it produced someone that has finds warmth and affection hard to understand, yes, but has incedibly chosen to be loyal, faithful and is committed to my health and healing. So we discussed this. It was hard and I cried a lot but as he said, he can't take away my pain. He feels sorry that they weren't "perfect" and is very aware of it but I know I need to see the Lord for healing from the loneliness and coldness I feel and accept him where he's at.

Got a tut today - feel so drained and tired and at the end of it but guess will have to somehow get through it.

Help me Lord.


Anna x