The 'T' Word

My lovely counsellor said to me that I use the word tired a lot and that it comes through in my writing and when I talk and I thought "yes, thank you for noticing!" I AM tired, most of the time. I probably spend most of my energy trying to ward the tiredness off! Why don't I just admit it? I'm tired. I don't want to be but I am.

I think I need to write down here all the things I need to do so i can clear my mind.
1. Translate tract into French
2. Assess manuscripts
3. Clean soot off walls
4. Vacuum
5. Tidy the car


I am so shattered tonight, i don't know what it is. I feel like I'm in the twilight zone. Probably from watching part of The Cube (don't ever watch it, horror disguised as sci-fi - 10 mins was enough - believe me!!). Lyn says I'm unsettled, not unpeaceful though. That's SO it - 'stuck in reverse' - I went to bed thinking 'this will be nice' and all i could think about was money, where the tweezers were, why I didn't bond with certain people or not and whether I was angry about it, why the soot wouldn't come off the walls and what the landlords would think about the smeary marks I tried so hard to get off and so on and so forth. My poor sick rat is itching herself silly but won't take the antidote. Oh Jesus - help again.

I am determined to have good news tomorrow!


Anna :)