Just Everything

So much hard stuff is happening - such soul-stretching, gut-wrenching stuff. Broken friendships, death of loved ones, family away, sick pets, finances stretched, health, etc etc. Honestly I don't know where to start and to begin. All I can do is turn to Jesus. All I can do to him is say help me. I can't really put into words everything I feel so am being threatened with slipping into a deep depression. Andrew is a rock but still I am down.

My Sustenance - Christafari

"I don't ever want to be away from you, loving you is the only thing I want to, I don't ever want to be away from you,
You are the one that is guiding me, I live by your word cos it makes me see, I get sustenance from your righteousness, without your word there's no happiness."

Time is slipping away, lord i need to draw clase to you, I don't want to stray..."

So simple but true for me. "Whom have I in heaven but thee?"

I look at the carving Valmai gave me before she passed away and it is a little girl nestling into the palm of God. I just look at that and it's like Jesus is saying "yes, I know - just do that. Forget everythig else, and do that." People and life are so complicated, I don't think Jesus is that comlicated.

My heart hurts, a dull ache, for what have lost. It's no longer a rip or a gash, it's healing but it still hurts. "Oh my friends, Have I wounded you so?, if only you could see into this heart for there is only love for you."

Anna